I Dream of Hope

Walking towards a new destiny,

a disdained gloomy future,

but there you were waiting, standing by me,

I stumbled, I fell, I moved away,

confused, disoriented, lacking belief,

unknowing what lies ahead, I took the leap,

But you were there, watching over me,

I ran as fast as I could, I swam across and into the depths,

I screamed, in pain and misery,

resonating in me the will and your strength,

I saw you smiling back at me,

Disgraced, damaged, I shielded myself,

Engulfed in a cocoon of self-induced banishment,

Disrespected, dishonored your existence in me,

clouded emotions, discerning my inner-belief,

In a distant hope, I felt you miles away, waiting

Humiliated with my own self-induced pain,

Disloyal to my sub-conscious, 

Vividly dreaded thoughts overpowering,

I searched for you in my memories,

withdrawn from emotions, 

a blabbering uncontrolled state,

Who was I ? what am I? I failed to recognize,

It was not your fault but mine,

yet I dreamed to reunite,

Why do I still breathe? why am I alive?

Is it a foolish dream I chase,

Is it why I ran away? I know now I was wrong,

too stubborn, too rigid, I struggled to escape,

to find a balance of passion and life

Emerging out from the cocoon of despair,

Tumbling to find a grip, yearning,

To cherish those memories again,

to feel alive with your touch,

to be born again with you as my wings,

soaring away into the endless light,

and breathe into a new life.

Is it just a dream? 

Will I ever wake up to see you,

Standing there, holding me,

watching over me, for all I have realized,

My purpose, My life are incomplete,

I always believed, I always knew,

on this crossroads of life,

I would be waiting for you.